Too many people depend on me for me to kill myself, and it pisses me the fuck off. I just want it to be over so badly. I still cannot even reconcile the idea that she could say those things, or agree with those people and the awful things they were saying about me, after everything I’ve done for her, everything I was GOING to do for her. It took me so fucking long to get over being used in middle school and be able to truly trust people again, and in one night, she’s managed to shatter my trust in everyone I know. I can’t believe anything anyone says anymore. My mom tells me she loves me and I honestly think to myself, “Do you? Do you really? What if this is just a lie, too?”
I just want life to be fucking over.